FUCK YOU POKERSTARS!!!!!!!!!!

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Here is just a sample of my last session

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FUCK YOU POKERSTARS, FUCK YOUR BULLSHIT COOLER SET OVER SET, SET OVER SET, SET OVER SET, KINGS VS ACES TEN TIMES IN A ROW! RUNNER RUNNER RUNNER RUNNER ASSHOLES. HOW MANY COINFLIPS CAN I LOSE IN A ROW HOW MANY %90 ALL IN FAVORITES CAN I LOSE IN A ROW. IM TAKING A BREAK!!!

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Oh yeah i got my holdem manager graph to be able to post again ending on a positive note.

2nd week jan 09

ERROR CANNOT POST HM GRAPHS ANYMORE!!!!

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17,800 hands/ -$142 profit/ 4,824 FPP's

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I have been defeated. So far 60,000 hands of nl25 and I am a loser. Running at -.2/100 no matter what I do I seem to be losing at nl25. I guess 60k hands isn't a big sample but I would like to think that at least I would be running in the positive rather than the negative. Near the end of the week I really worked on getting my pfr% up and loosened up a little in the calling area. I was also experimenting with running my stats up to around 35/25 ish which seemed to get me a lot more action when I did have a big hand. Which is a change from my super nit status. Halfway through this month I am actually half way to platinum star status. And I think that I could make it by the end of the month. But at this point I don't know whether or not I will continue playing at nl25. My plan at the beginning of the month was to play until I lost 20 buy-in's. But after losing session after losing session at nl25 I got a little down on myself. Almost to the point where maybe I had not played enough working on my game before I made the jump. Also I jumped directly from nl5 which has 200bb stacks to nl25 which is a 100bb stack but for 2 1/2 times the buy in. I mainly made this jump as I was having a little trouble at nl10. I know it sounds a little silly jumping a limit. I played a little there but the general consensus is and was that level was a luck shoot. The only difference was the change from 200 to 100 big blind stacks. I am not sure if this was what was giving me trouble or not or what. I am pretty sure I was not playing to many hands as one of my problems that I am trying to fix is opening up my range vs trying to nit everyone to death. It didn't help that I was constantly on the wrong end of the cooler for the week. And the short stacks were killing me. I think I am 3/60 on coin flips this week with them. Almost to the point that I began tilting. Had to cut a few sessions short. It just seems so strange that I could be beating nl5 for 8/100 over 300K hands only to move up and be running -.2/100. I don't like to blame things on variance vs myself just making bad plays and bad decisions.

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So now I need to make a decision. Continue to play perhaps the rest of the month at nl25 or until I lose another 14.3 buy-in's. Or move back down to nl5 or nl10. Or maybe even play some 6 max to help push my aggressiveness a little. Either way I think there is something wrong with my play that I can not just move to nl25 and at least be able to win 1/100bb's. I know my stats are still not ideal but stats are not the only thing that makes a winning player. Or I could just drop back now and log in some solid winnings sessions to boost my confidence. I mean as I am writing this I am only 300 hands in a nl5 session and am running 80/100. I just don't like logging in losing sessions if there is a problem with my game other than variance. I guess I will just have to finish the rest of the month out to know for sure. Also the amount of hands I have been able to log in has been decreasing due to the extra hours at work. No doubt this will be cut in quarter once the baby gets here.

Jan, 09 week 1

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22,500 hands/ $35 profit?????/ 5,478 FPP'S
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Couldn't get my graph to work this week something to do with error boxes or some crap. But I seen this and thought it was funny from 2+2. I managed to play the whole week at NL25 and it was a new experience. Same poker just more money. My roll is right at the 100 buy-in's mark I need to play at this level. When I was taking shots at this level back when my roll was around 2k. I seemed to get a little down when I dropped back down below 2k which affected my play a little. The opponents are obviously better and the worse ones are even worse. Was running into a little bit of a cooler for part of the week. My results ended up being really swingy. Found more opponents who are trying to put me to tough decisions. Every hand that I got into just spewed out scare cards. Needless to say the runner runners were out in force.
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I tried really hard to get a lot of playing in this week but was working 5-10's and had much to do on the weekend. I could see at this level if I was able to keep up my rate of play probably into the 30k area a week that I could reach platinum star level which would lead to supernova status later in the year. I know with the baby coming that this will be a harder thing to achieve. So there should be no point in waring myself out trying to do this. Besides There is some obvious holes in my game that are not allowing me to win consistently at NL25. I think my plan will be to continue to play at this level until I become a winner or lose 20 buy-in's. Playing at this level I think is going to force my aggression level up a little. 3 betting and 4 betting are going to become a lot more important. Also the amount of people cold calling with aces and kings pre flop to a raise in or out of position has tripled.
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Position has become even more obviously important at this level. Almost to the point that I dread getting into a pot with a strong starting hand oop. I guess the only answer for me is more playing time to get used to this level. I already have in 47,000 hands since thanksgiving mostly in the last week or so. And I am loosing over this amount at like .03/100. I am a little concerned over this obviously I won't know if this is just me or not until I hit another 50k more. I have noticed the amount of mistakes people make is a lot lower here. And I for see having to take a little more time hand reading and making decisions rather than just jamming the pot.
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Hopefully next week will be better. At worst case scenario I will be able to use my cash back reward bonus near the end of the month hitting the $285 reward. Hopefully this will not be needed to make this month a winner. But then again I have been fairly lucky by not having many or any losing months so far.

Dec Review

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144,800 hands/ $1,038 profit/ 16,000 FPP'S

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The only thing I re learned in December was what not to do. Maybe this is why so many people go broke at poker. Not being able to stay consistent with what needs to be done. It just turned out that I got pretty lucky when I broke the rules of bankroll management this month. I still am struggling with tilt. Not as much as dealing with it. But realizing when I am on it and taking a break from the game to not let it effect my play. Tilt for me is still mainly tied in with lack or low amounts of sleep. I can pretty much relate most of my bigger losing sessions to tilt. Or as Tommy Angelo put it. "Not playing my A game". It is so hard to win but yet so easy to throw it all away playing stupid. Those players that continue to do so and win, cannot go on forever.

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This month I mainly played at NL5 and worked on my game. Paying a lot more attention to positional raises. I greatly changed my stats from 20/3 range and brought them to 11/6 range. I know all I did was nit up mainly. But I had to make this step first and become comfortable with it before I can open up my range. Took a couple of tilted and non tilted shots way above my bankroll. Scored one big hand below.

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UTG+1: $728.50

Hero (UTG+2): $671.00

MP1: $1164.70

MP2: $288.85

CO: $600.00

BTN: $732.40

SB: $95.00

BB: $600.00

UTG: $451.80

Pre Flop: ($9.00) Hero is UTG+2 with 4:club: 4:spade:

2 folds, Hero calls $6, MP1 raises to $24, 5 folds, Hero calls $18
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Flop: ($57.00) K:spade: 4:heart: T:heart: (2 players)

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Hero checks, MP1 bets $39.00, Hero raises to $102, MP1 calls $63
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Turn: ($261.00) J:diamond: (2 players) Hero bets $180.00, MP1 raises to $1038.70, Hero calls $365 all in
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River:($1351.00) 2:heart: (2 players - 1 is all in)
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Final Pot: $1351.00Hero shows 4:club: 4:spade:Hero wins $1348.00MP1 wins $493.70(Rake: $-490.70)

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Again the only thing I can say about my poker abilities is that I still just suck at poker. Sometime it amazes me that I win at all. I took a nosedive in a live game Saturday night. I still have major holes and leaks in my game. I play way to passive and am very weak short handed. I am terrible at reading players and have a serious case of the "MUBS". Monsters under bed syndrome. I have been getting beat down so bad lately on so many hands that I find myself calling on the river rather than raising with very strong hands. I have reasons at the time but they all point back to the fact that my diet must consist mainly of weak sauce.

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Started playing a little bit at NL25. Have had some up and down results. It has been over a small sample size. The first half of the sample size is me running at my fish stats. And the second half is me running at my not so fishy stats. I started to make a com back in the last 10K hands or so. I am not totally rolled at 100 full buy-in's at this level. I currently have only 80 which is still $500 short of what I need but maybe I will let it ride and or drop down once I hit the $1,750 bankroll mark.

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I only have roughly one month until My new baby arrives. I am sure my poker career will immediately be put on hold for a little while. I was almost thinking of putting some of my live bankroll which I have been rebuilding online to help bolster my roll. Or to at least give me a little cushion playing at NL25. Even though I won all the money from scratch that I have in my roll. I would feel a little like I have cheated putting any money online. Even if I had won it playing poker or not. Also with the UIGA act. I am not sure I anyone will be able to put any more money online in the United States. So I am not sure if this is something I should do. As who knows I might not be able to take it back off. It will be interesting to see what laws the Bush administration will push through as they are leaving. Uncertain times....

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Onward to next month