8/24/08

Gross!

Don't know what to say about this week. I think the variance which I have been running well above started to catch up with me a little. This compounded by my own retarded poker playing abilities, which didn't help any. Set me back down to the $270 mark after I crested at $328 for my bankroll.
It all seemed to start on Tuesday. Before my session began I actually made a note on my playing ability for that day. "Last night I didn't get much sleep which is why I gave myself a lower daily ability today. So we will see how it goes". My rating for myself was 5/4.
The session which only lasted 1600 hands was -6/100. I took a couple bad beats from short stacker's and ran into set over set. I was also a little tired and didn't fold to a couple of raises that I had to fold to a bigger bet on the turn anyway. Also I tried to float blackrain78 in a couple of hands and got into trouble. The biggest problem players Ive encountered are Blackrain78, Sanya, Lucasong, Jofy, and one or two others. They are all multi-table rs who float and three barrel. And are pretty aware of when they are being trapped. The Sanya player has stacked me three times now.
Anyway, ten dollars down wasn't bad but I really wanted to play. So I broke three of the big no No's for poker. I decided for some reason to play .10-.25. I'm not sure how many hands I played but after the dust settled I was down to $288.

Poker Rules

1. Don't play when tired

2. Bankroll management

3. Don't rush poker

I was pretty disappointed at myself so the next day I went back to grinding it up at .02-.05 and dropped another $4.
Thursday I decided to stay with the roll management and grind ed out another 2k hands at .02-.05 and showed a $13 profit. I also decided to take a shot at .05-.10 which brought me just over the $300 mark. When the stacks were not as deep the play seemed to be a little weaker at this next level.
When Friday rolled around after work I was feeling pretty good about my playing ability. But yet after a 2k session I was only up $6, 6/100. This for some reason didn't feel like I was doing good despite the bb/100 being above the average. Then out of frustration I again took a shot at the .10-.25 level. I rolled out 1k hands and lost $7, -3/100
Saturday I awoke well rested and was ready to deal out some death! The note on the title of my notes. And was the only thing I wrote. My note taking has not been up to par lately. And I have also been taking a lot of beats lately. Anyways I played a 1100 hand session and scrapped my way while getting two outer ed a few times and was back down to $296. This was a little demoralizing and I cleaned the bathroom and took a little break. When I came back I decided that being just below $300 was close to the 30 full buy In's to play at the .05-.10, ten dollar buy in for the next level. I based my buy in and bankroll management off having 20-30 full buy In's to play at whatever level I was at. I thought this extra little buffer would help offset the swings emotionally a little more. Ive noticed the more money compared to the amount vs the whole. Plays a part in how frustrated I get when I play and loose. The next session wasn't any better running out another 1500 at .02-.05 and lost another $17. I started getting a little frustrated at this point even though I was not looking at the big picture. Earlier this month I was only at $75 and was still doing very well. So my next two sessions I played at .05-.10 and knocked out 2k hands. And dropping down to $269. My cards were running pretty bad and my play was starting to look similar. I think since Wednesday I must have flopped 12 boats and 20 or so straights and only %20 of my hands were holding. Don't know if the weekend was bringing out more inexperienced players but the variance was getting super high. And I was loosing more and more every time the money went in when I was ahead.
So today I had one more session at .05-.10 dropped a few more dollars and went back to .02-.05. The following session was even more brutal than the others and I took 5 beats for my stacks in like 10 minutes. I got super pissed and logged off before I went on a tirade and blew all my money out the spew cannon. I was super tilted, I didn't know what to do so I went and worked on my truck a little bit. After taking a break I logged back on for one more session. With my head clear I rolled out a 3k session at .02-.05. Don't know if the bad variance swing was coming to an end but I didn't take more than 4 retarded beats. The session ended and I was up $20 bringing my stack back to $270.
So overall I took a few shot at some higher stakes. Ran fairly bad and played a little bad as well. I think I'm going to stick with .02-.05 until as originally planned I hit $400. Then I will move up to .05-.10. I need to realize that I might need to grind out at a level for at least a month or two or until I hit 1,000,000 hands. And expect it not to go quicker for me. So starting next week I will only be doing weekly updates, unless something noticeable comes up.